A change from rainy and crisp to overcast and muggy served as the backdrop to stiffness and aches that seemed to annoy this survivor of nearly seven decades. On the advent of my birth anniversary I was perched precariously on the precipice of a pity party! A mood of woe was creeping in as I sat reflecting on the last couple of years since a formal “retirement”. As a not so fond participant in woeful moods, I decided to let myself go there and “listen” to what I must have been telling myself. Added to the mood walk after the evening eclipse, was the weight of an interrupted sleep by a not so well doggie who must have found a tasty mushroom or some other indigestible morsel to consume the day before. As I “listened” to what the mood “felt like” I began to realize the inaccuracy of the message. It is true that what has been accomplished is firmly in the past, but it is not over! The grace that underpinned any accomplishment attained still resides within this vessel overflowing with knowledge and experiences yet to be fulfilled. Gratitude began to arise as thoughts moved from “has been” to “yet still”. As I savored the presence of the “yet still” thoughts and began to season them with heartfelt gratitude, my “mood walk” changed. It is true that what has been is in the past, but here and now lays the good grace to discover the possibilities that are the substance of tomorrow’s memories. Yesterday’s tomorrow is here today. Thankfulness warms the pot of possibility that is now steaming with God’s grace.
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